The Wound

One of my clients recently asked me, "How do I get to joy? I feel stuck and I just want to feel joy again."

My response was to the point: "Have you taken time out to grieve? Pain doesn't go away until we sit with it."

I invited her to share her story and listened for repeating threads. She spoke of the abandonment by her father when she was eight years old, how she was dropped by a group of friends in high school and never found out why, that she was betrayed by who she thought was the love of her life when she was 28, was fired from a very good job in her thirties, and her husband died from cancer two years ago. Caring for her husband had fully drained her. She was spent and couldn't seem to get out of the rut she felt she was in.

As I sat with her, fully witnessing all she was feeling, we started to release a lot of the emotions trapped in her energy field. She let go of bitterness from her mouth, anger from her throat, sadness from her heart, betrayal from her belly, and loneliness seemed to pour out from the very center of her core. I helped ground her energy as she felt the intensity of the waves of emotion, and we sent them all through her body and down deep into the earth. She felt what it was like to not contain energy, but to find the flow, the release, the true letting go.

"It's just energy," I reminded her. "As you experience your feelings, we are giving a place for the energy to go so you don't have to carry so much of it anymore."

I tapped into her energy field and pulled up an akashic record from another lifetime with a similar pattern of loss. Finding the source of the abandonment wound, we released the energy, story, and pattern from that timeline and "closed the book" on the scene so the pattern wouldn't keep playing out in this lifetime.

We also looked at the pattern passed down from her mother's ancestors, helping to heal the wound for the entire motherline. Trauma gets passed down through the generations until someone is brave enough to feel it all. My client's body had been holding the pain of her own soul's journey, but also the pain of all her ancestors. As she healed herself, she was heroically healing those that came before her.

As my client came out the other side of our journey together she said she felt much lighter with a feeling of peace she can't remember ever feeling. We anchored that peace in her body and then explored a few simple steps to take in the 3D to anchor her new reality into her current life.

We checked back in with each other over the next couple of days. She mentioned that she didn't feel so stuck; that she wasn't revolving around the same old pain. The pain had somehow morphed and she felt bigger, like her life could contain more, that she was ready to move forward.

"I saw an ad for a new dance class, and I signed up," she said with excitement. "I've always wanted to learn the tango!"